I have all the space I could ever find within me, within time, within you, and even, without (physically). I just don’t provide the space to breathe, I guess I never do. I have been used to being prone down, and have pain being against me, to the point were being thrown over, and uptight is my own comfort. I just don’t ever want to steep so low ever again, and I guess trying to do so brings me closer to that point.
It’s like I am the only one that can hear the screaming. The stress builds up to overload into the bloodstream in my veins. My mind is so torn, it has no way to access through my own brain. Pores open up, and so do the words she speaks. It’s clear to me. I’m not where I am suppose to be. I’m far from seeing light without you, to guide me there. Only in my mind, Insomnia is it’s way through mother nature- in my environment.
poor ghosts, breathing dreams like air.
There is nothing to be sorry about when it comes to doing the things I love to do. I would go through hell and back to see you smile, and eventually I’ll look, and smile back. There can’t be no one else when You’re the only one to turn to. There can’t be no one better when You’re the best I could ever have. I am willing to do more than just fight my own way and tears to find you half way blinded and controlled by your own anger. One way or another, we will get there. It is never guaranteed that we will never stumble like this again, but it’s times like these were we learn from them and come back stronger. Pushing and doubting us won’t help us carry the love and memories we share, it’s pointless. What is there a point to prove? You’re not good enough to be with me? You’re doubting to only push and try to run away from your own fears? Nothing, can be proved or solved through this solution. I am here for a reason, I have chosen you a reason. Stop feeling so insecure, You have depending your own life with me to keep it easier for you, and less painful. After all it is my job, to take the pain when you can’t, keep you happy when at your worst. It’s my job to give you the happiness and passion you need to carry on your life with no worry in tomorrow. Don’t worry about me, worry only if I can make it to You, and yourself. Hey, along the way mistakes and faults are made. We are only human to do so, with time to come by, they will be made for, and forgiven- eventually, forgotten. As any other man, I never want to see my love to ever stumble upon her own thoughts. I am here to pick you up, give you the right set of mine, for you to not only see a brighter tomorrow, but in yourself as well. Your value to me should never have a difference in what You see in yourself. You may mean the world to me, and I may be first priority. At times, there is only the right mind to think of yourself. You must be first priority, You must put in as much effort I am to keep you on your feet, give balance into your life. Love is never easy when it’s as strong as ours, it’s not easy to maintain when there is many thoughts on one’s mind! which is why I am here of course! to keep those thoughts off your mind, and take pain you can’t handle. you can only take care of one through out the other one at a time. Don’t stress, we can take it slow. There is no rush when to love, even when building it to keep it alive. I just want you to know, You have given me more meaning to life than life has ever taught me to.
I am not the one setting THE mind. I only give the right advice to build THE mind. nothing more, nothing less.
I am tired
I am tired
I can only hear my breathing
I am tired
I am tired
Insomnia is calling my name
I am tired
I am tired
every night, is all the same,
it may seem deceiving.
ever night, more to come and go,
sleep has no meaning.
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First poem. 5/14/12- days of the “Great Depression”
